I can't believe I was ever intimidated by

There are many things that I have been afraid of throughout my childhood and many of those fears I have never out grew. Out of all the things I am or use to be afraid of I can't believe I was ever intimidated by the man in the big red suit.. yes, when I was little I use to be scared of Santa Claus. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed everything about christmas, from the gifts to the cartoon specials, I was just completely terrified of Santa. Every year my mother would take me to get my picture made with the jolly old man and I was just not going to have it. I would kick and scream until she would pick me back up and hold me while she stood beside him for me to have my photo taken. Obviously I didn't think he was so "jolly". I couldn't figure out what everybody thought was so great about him. I mean I know I was a little kid but I just knew that it was unnatural for an old man to dress in a red and white suit and on top of that he sits there in his big old chair waiting on little kids to sit in his lap to tell him what they want for Christmas. Now, tell me do you see something wrong here? That's the way I saw him when I was little but now I am no longer intimidated by him. I stopped believing in him before I went to middle school. Knowing he isn't a real person and that's what help me over come my fear. Even though I know longer believe in him, I understand why a kid would be frightened of him.

I'm writing this blog, but I should be..

I should be doing a lot of things right now, like doing other homework assignments or cleaning up around the house. I will eventually get to the other assignments I'm suppose to be doing but I know that once I get my mind focused on the other assignments that will take a lot longer to finish I will forget to do the easier assignments I have. Besides the other assignments aren't as enjoyable as this one, this assignment allows me to express myself and show how I feel or what I'm thinking on a particular subject. Oh and the cleaning, that's not happening today. Today is my day off from school and from work. Now that I think about it what I could be doing instead of this, I could actually be writing my fiance a letter. I could write it now but I'm going to wait until later tonight. I usually like to wait until night time to write him because it helps me sleep better at night knowing that everything I've kept on my mind all day was now on that piece of paper and off my shoulders. It makes me feel as if I'm really talking to him. I know this sounds weird but I consider him my personal diary. I know whatever I tell him will never be spoke of again unless it is with me and the difference between him and an actual diary is that I get a response from him. Another thing I could be doing is spending time with him.. but he's not here. I can't wait to see him again.

In January I was..

In January I was making New Year's resolutions I almost never keep and eating cake with barney on it. Well this year for my New Year's resolution I made myself two "promises". One which I kept by getting my license before I turned eighteen. Actually, I just told a fib to begin with my "promise" was really to get my license before I graduated but that just wasn't going to happen because I had other stuff to stress over like: securing scholarships I had been awarded, being an honor graduate,  preparing for prom, passing final exams, and the most important.. graduating! So, that resolution changed immediately. The second promise was to start exercising everyday.. did that happen? hmm, let me think, NO! It lasted for maybe three or four months and then I slowly stopped, as usual. I'm pretty sure you're wondering why I was eating cake with barney on it in January. January 19th is my baby sister's birthday and this year she turned two. She was and still is obsessed with barney so for her birthday she wanted a barney birthday cake and she got what she wanted. So, everyone including adults were eating a cake that had not only barney but baby bop on it too. Did I mention that in January I was also freezing my butt off? We all were, I seriously hope this winter is not as long, cold and brutal as last years.

life takes some funny twists and turns..

No one on this earth's journey begins or ends the exact same way. Some people have similar paths, but no two people know how the other feels or what they went through to get where they are today. Some go down dark paths that have painful moments and are hard to get through. Some have never had to face a single dark moment in their life, their life is filled with pretty much nothing but happiness and opportunity. There are also those out there that go back and forth between the two paths, making their life miserable. The twists and turns in life can be voluntarily chosen or it can be chosen for you. Sometimes it can be predicted and sometimes it's highly unexpected. Some peoples paths are cut short because of these twists and turns and some peoples life are extended. In the end, your life is all up to these funny twists and turns that are taken throughout it..

Sometimes I feel like a..

Sometimes I feel like a punching bag, not physically but emotionally and mentally. I feel like people come to me when they need some stress relief and take all their problems out on me. I feel like I get fussed at for things I have no control over or things I didn't even do. I've noticed that people tend to do it during the times that you are down. I try to overcome them and dodge each blow that comes my way but sometimes it's so hard to hold it all in. Majority of the time I do and I feel accomplished that I didn't let them and their comments get to me. Sometimes I feel the need to just let it all out. People never seem to notice how the way their words and actions affect you and needless to say at that particular moment they don't even care. They usually end up apologizing and I in return forgive them of course after giving them a piece of my mind and go on with life as it was before. a good thing that comes out of this is that it makes me a very strong individual.